Wednesday, April 28, 2010

Save me...

Save me from myself. For I have lost... myself, somewhere, over there, in my dimly lit flickering office, in the corner, underneath a pile of paper, file folders and unprocessed documents. Will you come and dig me out, dust me off and play with me? Help me regain my joy and remind me how to smile again? I have forgotten how to curl my lips upward. They seem stuck in a forever frown. With coffee breath rampant, I run around all day on a caffeine high. The constant GO-GO-GO is like a needle repetitively poking me in my eyes.

But this, this moment right here, it helps. It makes the noises more dull and the murmurs of my stressed out brain a bit more bearable. Typing these words to you every day is like having a long distance therapist. Many of them. Do I need more than one? Either way, I know you are listening. I know you care. And I know you know that I'm crazy, and that you accept it. HA!

LOVE YOU GUYS! Clearly, today was another fun filled adventure in cubicle, florescent paradise. BUT I MADE IT! I'm that much closer to my 3 day weekend and I seriously can't wait. I consider taking this Friday off to be perfect timing. My head throbs everyday, screaming for a bit of freedom. We're almost there baby, we're almost there!


BREAKFAST of champion lunatics (meal #1) at 9:15am.
  • 1/2 old fashioned oats
  • 1/4 wheat bran
  • 1 1/2 cups water
  • 1 tsp cinnamon
  • dash pumpkin pie spice
  • pinch salt
  • Splenda
  • (Microwaved and topped with 1 tbs ground flax, 1 tbs sugar free strawberry preserves, more cinnamon and 2 tbs pumpkin butter.)

This was so good. I forgot how much I like pumpkin butter in warm oats. YUM-YUMMERS!

Shhhhhhhh, do you hear that? That weak whimper? It's me. HA! We had a mandatory meeting at noon today. It involved more fun and exciting work for my position that I'll have to make some miracle time for and pizza, which of course I couldn't eat. Good times..... Good times......

LUNCH (meal #2) at 1:00pm.

I whipped my healthy lunch together as soon as the meeting was over. All my greasy lipped coworkers watched in awe and horror as I plated up my leftover asparagus, mushrooms and broccoli over a bed of spinach. Yeah, that's right. I love my body and feed it accordingly. Take that pepperoni breath! I topped off my veggies with roasted red pepper hummus and Sriracha and also had a toasted english muffin on the side (which I forgot to take a picture of).

To put it simply, this was incredible! :)

A little while later Ann and I escaped for a bit and ran to Barnes and Nobles to take a breather. I enjoyed some African Autumn tea and browsed through a few cooking and fitness magazines. It was SO nice to get away from my computer screen. :)

SNACK (meal #3) at 4:00pm.

A repeat of yesterday, and the day before that, and the day before that. What can I say. I take comfort in the familiar. I had a plain Dannon Greek yogurt with 2 chocolate protein muffins.

After work I ran.... I literally RAN out of the office (with the biggest smile on my face) and went to the gym to get my sweat on.


Seated Leg Curls (cable)
100lb x 15
90lb x 15
90lb x 15
Leg Extensions (cable)
100lb x 15
90lb x 15
90lb x 15
Inner Thigh Machine (cable)
75lb x 20
75lb x 20
75lb x 20
Outer Thigh Machine (cable)
85lb x 20
85lb x 20
85lb x 20
Reclined Leg Press (plate loaded)
140lb x 15
140lb x 15
140lb x 15
Free Weight Squat with straight bar
45lb x 15
55lb x 15
45lb x 15
Elliptical Cross Trainer
20 minutes, 1 min. intervals of levels 6, 8 & 10, 1.6 miles
10 minutes
min. 1 (3.2 walk)
min. 2 (5.5 run)
min. 3 (3.2 walk)
min. 4 (5.5 run)
min. 5 (3.2 walk)
min. 6 (5.5 run) Back of left thigh started to feel funky, so I stopped running.
min. 7-10 (3.2 walk at 8 incline)

Total time at gym = 1:19
Max HR = 178
Average HR = 138
Total Calories Burned = 626

After the gym we did the usual feeding of the kitties at Mama and Papa's house and then I hustled home. I had brilliant plans tonight for some palate pleasing goodies!

SNACK (meal #4) at 7:45pm.

LADIES AND GENTLEMEN! I recently started seeing no bake "cookie" concoctions in BlogLand and I thought I would give them a try tonight. In a small bowl combined the following. DON'T ASK QUESTIONS! Just do it!
  • 1 scoop chocolate whey protein powder
  • 1 tbs Better N' Peanut Butter
  • 1 tbs (and a splash, JUST a splash) of unsweetened vanilla Almond Breeze
Stir the HECK out of this gooey and sticky mixture until it's nice, thick and pasty. Next, take a piece of foil (or a plate) and sprinkle it with sweetened coconut flakes, scoop 3 servings of the sticky mixtures and roll it in the coconuts. They will start out as balls and flatten as they sit. I popped hem into the freezer for 10-15 minutes and VOILA, they were PERFECT!! Like cold, chewy, rich no bake chocolate cookies.

Here is a picture of something TRAGIC! An empty plate. I WANT MORE!

DINNER (meal #5) at 9:00pm.

I sauteed some green beans and frozen peas with soy sauce, spicy Thai chili paste and minced garlic. I piled them on top of spinach for a warm salad of sorts. I also had a Morning Star Farms black bean burger on an Ezekiel wheat bun with spinach, low carb ketchup and spicy mustard. I loved the green bean and peas combo! It was excellent.

The TV and my couch beckon me to come hither. I think I'll call it a night and relax with the Mr. for a bit. Time to UNWIND!

Tomorrow is my last day of work for the week. YAY! I..CAN..NOT..WAIT..FOR..5:00pm!!




lynn @ the actors diet said...

your little protein pb cookies look terrific - will try a version of that soon!

wewillvacation said...

Those cookies look amazzing!! And gem <3

homecookedem said...

Oh girl, those no bake cookies look great, I need to make those ASAP!! Thanks!! :)

Sonia said...

I hate it when workplaces serve junky food! Why don't WE get a say?!
The cookies look fab- I'm going to try them tonight!

Kelly said...

Ugh why do they schedule meetings during lunchtime?? Same thing happened to me today, at least there was no gross food. Of course someone did bring in a bunch of giant chocolate chip cookies.

Happy to be one of your therapists ;)

sweetlife said...

and your therapist says "breathe just breathe" think of your days by the beach, drinking margaritas with thr mr. haha almost friday...I had a meeting also it consisited of 20 loads of laundry, ha ha
hey I'll cook for you anytime you crazy girl..



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